Just Two Months Ago The Ice Queen

The snow came.

I've been in shorts ever since she went away again. Coincidence? Or just another chapter in my journey? Who blooming well knows?

Not I said the...well, whatever, here's another batch of stuff. head still bursting with new things, but trying to catch up with waist-deep photos, work, and enjoying finding out that it's actually ok to care about "me", so that was one lesson she taught me... Stop g-a-f what everyone else thinks, and just be yourself. Thought that was just how life was, but seems you can take it to another level too, and still not be mean.....

 No puns.

Just lots of dead-wood.

 The snow came.

I've been in shorts ever since she went away again.

 

You Know, "Song of Logic" Says Rob. Well..

I face my paths with irrationality,

I look to my future, passionately,

I am quite indifferent to my nationality,

I am of quite sound personality,

Not concerned with pre-ordained reality,

Or worried about total fatality.

Despite my pre-ordained irrationality,

Or my future wife's compatibility,

Or my indifferent personality,

Or my quite sound fatality,

Or my pretty total nationality,

Or my life's wife's passionality,

I'm not concerned with pre-ordained reality,

Simply sitting, having a beer with a friend.

 

Learning About Myself.

Now I am me, I know that,

Why couldn't I see that, now that I am,

Learning about loving, and living, and me,

Knowing I'm not wasted, not spent, but free,

Can I use what I've learned and live ?

Can I forget what I've seen and love ?

I know I am whole, now I am me.

Grown Up

We all approach adulthood in our own way,

Me, I approached it sideways,

Trying not to catch its eye,

Trying not to be noticed,

Thinking, perhaps, I could just slide on by,

You know.

Like having to shake hands with the bride,

When shes also an ex,

Or the groom,

When he knows,

Or the vicar, who's also a "Specialist doctor",

Just smile serenely,

And try not to get on first name terms.

Only time will tell if this is a good strategy,

Or if its really working so far...

 

Love Locked

Right knee, bent to right angle

Between yours and turn, click

Locked, as arms tangle,

Left through right and right over shoulder,

Turning, and lock again, naked

Chinese puzzle that can never be undone.

I lick the blood off your skin

Dreaming at each salt droplet

And spitting

Bitter memories to the damp earth.

I lick the poison from the wound

And (again) we survive the night.

 

Love In A Mug.

Sitting with my chocolate in my mug,

Sitting warm, by the fire, on the rug,

The rug, where you said you loved me,

Just a week ago, last Tuesday.

How much you cared I now know,

I cared much, much more, so ?

Was I a fool to care for you ?

No, I cared just as much too.

Do you feel just the same,

When someone else plays your game ?

Are you sitting on some rug,

With your chocolate in your mug,

By a cozy, red coal fire ?

Thinking...."You little liar.." ?

Late Night Notes. Ironic Period

TV

Wheres the porn wheres the porn wheres the porn

Wheres the porn wheres the porn wheres the porn

Wheres the porn wheres the porn wheres the porn

Wheres the porn wheres the porn wheres the porn

Wheres the porn wheres the porn wheres the porn

Celebration of irony celebration of distillation

Celebration of consumer culture and then more irony

So

Wheres the porn wheres the porn wheres the porn

Wheres the porn wheres the porn wheres the porn

Wheres the porn wheres the porn wheres the porn

Wheres the porn wheres the porn wheres the porn

Wheres the porn wheres the porn wheres the porn

Wheres the porn wheres the porn wheres the porn?

A: Where it always was, inside all of you.

Its the reason

I take my ear-rings out

Before going to the office

Nice & professional

And before the Meet

Hunting etiquette

Debars such

On both gentlemen and

Gentlewomen.

So, keep your eyes open,

When hunting.

Very very hard to explain, but I miss this old girl so very much sometimes. "Lady at Chew" that was the name of the picture, she was "Maisie, or Daisy or something, I refused to use either so called her "Lady" as I thought it sounded similar enough not to confuse her, and God bless her, it didn't.




Well, that's it for this episode. No hidden messages, again, just me catching up on old ssshh. Maybe I should start to review/preview it before posting, but hey, where's the fun in that?

Still a scary amount to go before I have that ledge to jump off....

Small steps....

Not stopped walking yet.